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Wednesday, August 24th, 2005
3:30 am	This is an End. This is a Beginning. This is an End This is my last entry, my goodbye to that which is live journal. From now on I will write entries only to myself, if at all. I simply don’t have the guts to be completely honest on this thing, so I would prefer spilling my thoughts open privately. I have to cover July and August so bear with me if you find yourself reading all the way through this. First off, Harry Potter has consumed my life since late June. I read through the 5th book before the 6th came out. I partied at media play at midnight with Andy, Leigh, Mark, and Cameron. We played guitars until the line died down, and then we wore capes at Meijer. I looked especially good in the white sunglasses hint get me some. So anyway, I read the 6th book in the next few days and I absolutely loved every page of it. It was my favorite in the series. I wanted to read it again, but instead I decided to read 1 through 4 again and then 6. Well I breezed through 1, 2 and 3, but I’m still stuck in 4. I won’t be able to read 6 again till some other time. I realize that I should have read more thought provoking books instead, but I don’t regret it too much. They entertained me and always kept me from boredom this summer. My order of HP favorites is 6, 4, 5, 3, 2, 1. My SLU orientation happened where I met some cool guys like Vince, Brendan (from Dayton), Paul and some cool girls like Katie, Sanda, and Courtney. It was a decent time. I talked with Katie until about 5 am which led to three hours of sleep. I learned about Washington DC from her I’m grateful to know more about the high school scene in that city. Politics are really really important there. I woke up late even though I was supposed to wake up John so we missed breakfast. I felt bad for it, I really did. The freedom was so out there. St. X was pretty open, but college is a lot more choice. I got my bad AP results. I got credit for Psych and Spanish, but not calc and English. I was disappointed, but I got over it after a few days. I got into a higher level Spanish class that I am scared of since I’m nowhere near fluent, but I’ll try. Oh yeah, I won a red SLU ball. My college schedule has oral Spanish, Sociology, Theology, Chemistry, and Personality Psych I think. I had to talk with my academic advisor after the orientation though. I want to take anthropology and social work next semester and finally decide on majors. I saw Wedding Crashers with Eric Moster and I thought it was really funny, but not as funny as what most people seem to think. Charlie and the Chocolate factory with Biggin was good too, but the movie was not great in my opinion. John and I went to a small backyard party Sid had. It was a good experience. Sid tackled his car and made a dent in it. I got to hang out with Jamie and Dan more, which was cool. Another movie marathon was held at Sid’s a little later with Eric Dorger. We watched Y Tu Mamá También, In Good Company, and the Machinist. I really enjoyed Y Tu Mama Tambien because it was directed by Cuarón and it forced me to ponder how far I want to take relationships along with some other thoughts. In Good Company was only kinda funny. Christian Bale was skinnier than me in the Machinist. It was crazy and entertaining to watch. I liked it. I went to Tri County with Drew, John and Sid (I think). Eric came too, and he treated us to some sweet Starbucks drinks. I forget what they are called, but the sample of green tea frapp was really tasty. I bought a new hacky sack too. It’s blue and black, and it makes me happy to carry around. Eric Dorger had a Disney party days later. I watched Beauty and the Beast, Hercules, Aladdin, and some of The Jungle Book. I talked with Scott Feister, which was nice. I met Eric’s then boyfriend Marshall too. I really got into this song called “Standing Here” by Last Winter. I just really like it for some reason. It puts me in a good mood. I compiled a list of songs that I listened to for a few days that instantly put me in a good mood every night. It was wonderful, but it’s harder to enjoy it now that my leave is coming so soon. Yeah, I haven’t hung out with the Florida group much at all. Hunt’s grad party was probably one of best nights of the latter part of this summer. It’s a really sweet two-parter. Badminton, cornhole (losing dang), talking with Colin, being excited when Joe and John ended up coming, meeting and getting to know Katie Madges who is going to SLU also, meeting Molly later, trampoline black socks, adventuring past the creek and walking along the dark road with Chris, Joe, and Katie, naming my hack Bluegrass, ping pong with Alex (winning yay), making up a more fun pictionary, Gatorade. The best part was probably squirt gunning down while running around the house with a water gun. My choices made the party fun and I was glad that that was so. After that party, I went to village green to meet Leigh’s group, and Rodney and Katie(?). Rodney was leaving for the military the next day so it was cool meeting him. He was incredibly nice and he went to get these vacuum tight meals for us. We used some cool water to heat food like beef stew. We ate some cool stuff like rice, cookies, beef stew, and so many other things I forget about. Needless to day, Rodney was so nice it seemed unreal. After that I went home with a nice vacuum tight meal to keep in case of something. Unbelievably great night. Also at village green, I’ve played poker a few times with Mark’s, or my own, chips. I hack there too sometimes with whoever wants to go at it. The next day Sid and I drove to Indianapolis to spend the day with Katreen and Morgan from Model UN. Sid was worried about his mom being sick so we leaved earlier than expected, but we still had a great time at Church’s Chicken (”ghetto KFC”), a sweet record store where I bought Letting Off the Happiness (perhaps my favorite Bright Eyes CD). We went paddle boating for an hour and it was fun trying to get others wet in the little fountains. We made it to the end of the canal and back. We drove to Zionsville and saw the school and cobblestone streets. We ate Subway and departed. It was fun I must admit. My sister got in a car accident so she’s been grounded and I have to drive her to and from work sometimes. She needs to talk more. My two sports regrets: Not playing tennis earlier because it would have been great exercise for four years of high school. Also, not trying for bowling. Peter has been in Fairfield three times this summer. The third time, which was more recent, was really fun. We went to Jungle Jim’s again with Amanda, Sarah, Rachel, and Mark I suppose. I just don’t like Sushi. I like the new Alkaline Trio CD, especially the song “Burn.” I found out Katie Madges, who I’ve been talking with occasionally really late is the daughter of the coauthor of the theology Vatican II book we read in class. This freaked me out. I went to DJ’s for his last night and swam in his lake after witnessing his beautiful estate. It’s a really nice place. We had a bonfire and made smores sorta. Brian, Alex Budkie, Mike, Monica, Meredith, Samma, and Lindsay were there at one point or another. It was sad saying goodbye to a good friend, but the last effect hasn’t hit me yet. Later on, I went to see Smashmouth with John Fogg. We met Peter, Andy, Leigh, And Cameron there. I didn’t like the music too much, but it was fun to be there rocking out. We ate appetizers at Applebee’s. Peter Suttmiller’s older sister was working there and we talked about Pete for a second. We then went to village green where it rained really hard. John and Peter fought an epic battle in the grass. I loved it. I went to the SHS festival at one point to see Jon O’Connor, but I got Eric Steiger in his stead, which was cool because Eric is a really cool cat. I don’t remember the day, but the SLU Send-off happened. I played cornhole with Molly, Katie, Megan, and Tony, which was really fun. The set was really nice. I met Kaitlin Rooney and Katie’s dad, which was a real pleasure. I really enjoyed talking with the aforementioned people and therefore looked forward to college even more. I finally decided to buy a CD between Desaparecidos, White Stripes, and My Chem Romance. I purchased Get Behind Me Satan and have been enjoying it since then. At Laura’s party, I wore 90’s grunge and loved it. She has a Frisbee golf hole in her backyard fyi. I worked at 6 am after that night which left me with like 3 hours of sleep. I worked at 6 am twice and 7 am once this past week and it was ridiculous. I managed to do it though. Club Budkie happened where I got to see Jacquelyn again, met a cool kid named Chris, hacked it up, cornholed, and hammock talked with John about college. I went to Jason Schwartz’s house the same night to say see ya to him. We played some fun taboo and a guessing game. The worst part of summer was definitely getting a haircut. I lost the hair in my eyes, and my sex appeal. I am left with people calling me like Eric Foreman. I look years younger and so I cannot wait for it to grow back. I’m so superficial when it comes to this stuff. I went to Waterworks and then village green to say goodbye to Eric Moster and Peter Andon. I played tennis with 27 and got pretty good at serving which I love doing now. It was a sad moment, but I did not let what was happening soak in. I guess I will have to wait until I start missing them more to realize the sadness I was expecting beforehand. I saw 40-year-old Virgin twice. The first was with Biggin. It was a funny movie that did a good job of getting its point across, which was that the virgin was the least pathetic character. I went bowling with Schwartz, Schick, and Moyer. I was “Donnie.” 148, 110, 113. I went to see the same movie again for free. After it, we jumped over stuff at the theatre and at St. Agnes. I jumped over a tall fence and liked it. By the way, 27 has been coming over at night occasionally to play ping-pong, which has been good too. My last day of work happened. I didn’t like saying goodbye to Cameron, Andrea, Amy, and Becka. They seemed really sad and that in turn made me sad. After working at McDonald’s for two years, I have learned a few things about people. I hated how people smoked and talked on their dang cell phones in the drive-thru, but I cannot expect people to care that much about their fast food experience. I have become, As Corey suggested, desensitized to the gross things that happen in the store. My favorite moments were when people would randomly pay for the people behind themselves or be really nice about everything. I really enjoyed taking orders faster than anyone else. I daresay I will miss working there. Movies I’ve added to my collection, mainly for college: Detroit Rock City, Old School, Anchorman, Motorcycle Diaries, I Heart Huckabees. This lead to the movie marathon I had with Sid, Eric Dorger, Max George, and John. We watched boogie nights, which was decent, Election, which I thought was entertaining, and The Piano Teacher, which was so loco. Obsession can be such a problem to treat. I said goodbye to all four of those guys that night. I won’t see them for a long time, but I hope to see them again. Tonight, Joe Besl came over and we explored Fairfield a bit. We walked all around the new big house neighborhood. The tunnels by the lake/waterfall were exciting and web-filled. We went to Water works and walked past the baseball fields. I freaked out at a light that came on a thing I wanted to climb. We walked back and got some Taco Bell. At Village Green, we met Katie and Jason. I jumped over the trash thing, which made me feel great. We finally went home and I had to say goodbye to Joe too. Today I packed stuff in boxes, moved the loveseat into the van, received the laptop. I went to Village Green on my last night. Sarah was doing the same thing. Before that though I ate at Skyline with family and played tennis with Katie, 27, and Mike Baumann. I had to say goodbye to Katie and Dustbowl, which was saddening. I became slightly more depressed as each person left Village Green…39…Andy…Leigh…Sarah and Tim and Jason and Amanda and Laura and Rachel and Mark. I later said goodbye to Mike and Brian who joined later on. Amanda gave me a wonderful gift, a copy of Great Gatsby with notes and a photograph. I went home and called Mike Sweeny to say see ya to him. We talked for minutes about college life and coming to see his film premiere during Thanksgiving Break. I forgot to mention that last night Katie ordered our Bright Eyes tickets online for November 12th in St. Louis. I am so pumped. I now find myself adding words to my last entry, almost completely ready and excited for starting another chapter in my life. I could tell you right now that I will miss all of you, but that would be dishonest. I may miss some of you later on, but I simply could no figure that out at this point. Please be content, though, that you have influenced me just by being a friend to me. I have learned from everyone I’ve spent time with and that alone is something I am grateful for. I really hope to live in college as I choose, and not as I have learned from others. I am ready. This has been the best summer of my life. Thanks to everyone who has spent time with me. I have learned so much about people and I’m not kidding. I feel like I can easily throw myself into this new lifestyle. And I will be doing just come a few hours from now. My life until this point is over. Goodbye. At least, for now. This is a Beginning (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 23rd, 2005
2:51 am	The coming night The next entry has been written and will be released in the next day or two. It's so big it wants to eat your face. Watch your back! Current Music: White Stripes - Get Behind Me Satan CD (Comment on this)
Sunday, July 31st, 2005
2:18 am	Jester12525: i thought of something today Jester12525: you know how i was really really close to going to xavier, but decided to hit up slu instead? le s s thanleigh: yeah Jester12525: well i imagined xu to be an extension of st.x Jester12525: and so while at st.x i was trying to be very jesus like and catholic and a great guy and everything Jester12525: and after peru, so mainly during senior year, i began to become secular, like trying to absorb wisdom be it from people different from myself or information or places or whatever Jester12525: and also, i lost a lot of faith, but still kept the wanting to be a great person and all that jazz le s s thanleigh: yeah.. Jester12525: so by going to slu, i am continuing the wanting to be wise and good since it's still a jesuit school, and jesuits are really big about encouraging new thinking Jester12525: so i basically thought of that little analogy July update soon hopefully (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 28th, 2005
2:24 am	June 4th until now This entry is to recap since my last entry. Before Florida: Peter came to Cincy where he belongs. We were at village green a lot and the mist memorable night was when Pete, 27, Leigh, Cameron, and Renee came to my house really late. We played ping pong and mariokart, which I won the most at because. Then we played fort. Shoes and cat toys and other balls were used as ammo. Then we sat talking in the driveway until Peter had the idea of going to the creek. I brought a flashlight to help guide us all in the pitch black. As we walked along we managed to get past any problems like lack of rocks at some places. It was just sweet. Then we sat more on the driveway talking about things I honestly cannot remember. I was up until 5 even though I had work at 8 or 9. It was worth it. I went to Jungle Jim's with Peter and Nick which was also fun. We watched the video on how the store got so big. It was a nice success story. I bought chocolate milk. No surprises there! One night before Florida I went to Sid's and talked with Eric, Sid, and Doug about some Kinsey and homosexual related issues. I forgot to mention how much I enjoyed Kinsey. It's probably one of my favorite movies of all time. I cannot think of anything else that happened before Florida. We played with a big ball at village green. Frisbee too. Florida - June 11th to June 20th(?) - I kept what happened in a journal and I really don't feel like transferring it, so let me just write that it was a fun learning experience. I got to know Brian, DJ, Mike, Monica, Kristin, and Ann a lot more. So after Florida I think I went to Eric Dorger's house first. It was a small gathering of people. we played a game where you write down what you think is the end of a phrase. It was entertaining. We later walked to Wyoming High School's public pool and football field and track. I climbed a piece of machinery that lifts a person really high up. I was so proud, but then I heard loud cop sirens and I tried toget off fast which was fun and exciting. The cops weren't after me however. What a relief! I questioned Eric's exploits and then went home eventually. I hung out with the Florida group at CD World and Northgate Mall. I got the new Weezer CD which I love and the new Jimmy Eat World CD which I like. I liked those bands when listening on Mike's Ipod in Florida. Note: I have yet to get my father a present for father's day. The Florida group went to Mike's gardens twice since the trip. It was dark and there were deer. It was nice. Ate at TGI Friday's and got a big burger. I spent a night at Sid's with some of his cool local friends. Mainly Jamie, Dan, and Joe. I watched Team America again and Eurotrip which I have to admit is a funny movie. Wendy's run and a White Castle run. Sid's friends had some drinks and it was just a cool learning episode. Another day I went to IHOP where lots of others showed up. I went to 39's house to look at old videos but we couldn't find them. We found another funny one of Jason when he was starting to learn how to skateboard. Sarah and I laughed at 39's higher voice and antics. It was ridiculous. Yesterday I went boating at Brookville Lake in Indiana with Brian. It was so much fun, mainly riding in the intertube and making a home of it. His dog came along which was funny. We listened to my music while on the boat too which was extra cool. That night I went to my cousins for family birthday party. But I got there kinda late and ended up leaving to see Joe Besl while in the neighborhood. We watched his films he made with friends in the last two years and they were really funny. I saw a bunch of photos in his room too which reminded me of how much I am not grateful enough for being able to live. One photo made me crack up that had Jason Heaton trying to stick a huge quarter in a pop machine. Dang! it was funny. I kinda got lost going home and then today I got called to work and then went to see Batman Begins with Moster, Leigh, and Cameron. We all liked it. We then talked inside and outside Cinema 10 for many minutes. College is getting ever closer. So tonight I sit typing in my journal wishing I had a better memory so I wouldn't have to do this. I think I'm getting a little more sleep than usual. My brother left for England a day or two ago. He like officially doesn;t live at this house. It made me sad, but I'm really glad he finally got abroad. I'm looking forward to SLU orientation on July 7th and 8th, then family reunion on the 9th. Thanks to everyone who has made my summer really fun so far! Current Music: Weezer, Jimmy Eat World (Comment on this)
Saturday, June 4th, 2005
12:21 am	Listless Night Tonight Things to remember from last couple weeks Cousin's grad party: Flirting with poison ivy, an old beat up lawn mower, getting laughed at by 4 ear olds for sucking at frisbee throwing, cornhole, not playing volleyball, terminator 2, my very drunk uncle (who was the one to "test" the keg hours earlier blaming me for dropping something he himself was holding. Cornhole party Graduation: being in the front row, finding out Nick Mock's middle name is Blaze, getting really nervous before the Religion and Spanish awards were given, being frustrated I hadn't won an award, realizing I didn't deserve one, seeing that friends were receiving awards, taking bad photos with people afterwards, That Night: going to Sitwell's afterwards with Sid and Dorger, Frappecino that was worth ordering again, "crashing" Schlecter's party, beating Alex Hunt in ping pong, eating chocolate cake, watching Harold and Kumar and then going to White castle for SId's first time (Joe and Chris came long), White Castle chocolate shake, You Got Served's decent moves, taking a walk around the Anderson block and noticing how green it was, sleeping three hours, Sid taking me home. Watching the Spelling Bee and As the World Turns with Sarah, IHOP, Mark slamming his water on the table and getting a plastic cup with a lid to replace it, seeing Brennan working there (the kid who hangs out with Schmitty), three hour nap, village green, frisbee, shootout, life. The things stopping me from being in a great mood: lacking motivation to search for another job, not having the stx routine to rely on for feeling somewhat productive good mood because: hopes for more fun grad parties, reading fifth harry potter again, Florida soon, the fact that I just ran the longest distance I've ever ran, running into the wet leaves on purpose to cool down, having my bro home, and knowing that you sorta regret reading these lists. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, May 21st, 2005
12:47 am	Life Stage Completed: High School The last week of high school started horribly, but improved. On Sunday I spent ours trying to understand the Israel Palestine topic, but could not write decent arguments for why Israel is the good guy. I was sick to my stomach thinking of how I let my senioritis affect a group project. I thought I would motivate myself for something where responsibility is expected. The debate on it didn’t go too badly and Coffey was able to get extra points. However, it’s not good that Mr. Kemper gave me a grade that caused me to not get exempt from the exam. So Tuesday night at around 3 a.m. I finish what I think is my last St. Xavier assignment. I think it was my Theology Heaven/Hell Image and paper. Let’s digress. I realized how little I’ve thought of heaven and hell and the afterlife in general. All I had in my head were childish images of heaven and hell that I didn’t believe in. I’ve never had someone close to me die and so I’ve never felt so inclined to think on the topic, though it is confusing and mysterious. My conclusion was basically that since people have such different environments and influences in their lives they cannot be judged for everything. So that makes hell disappear, and it leaves heaven to be some confusing place where unconditional love is the only necessity if there is human interaction. Hopefully I make sense. I will be able to start getting more sleep now. I’m done digressing. So I have no homework Wednesday night and decide to go to Star Wars III with my brother and failing to hook up with Brian, DJ, then Zak, and then Max. So my brother decided to go with me. The 12:10 showing at Cincy Mills was very enjoyable. I found the movie to be very entertaining, even with humor. I didn’t get home until around 3 and I didn’t fall asleep until closer to 4. This wasn’t much different than my normal routine, which is sad but changeable. Thursday rolls around and I didn’t get exempt from Politics and Religion which made me angry. Extra Credit boosted me up so I no longer have to return to St. X next week. Senior interviews were first in which I didn’t say too much to Mr. Wilkins and Mr. Marshner. I was honest and Wilkins told me thanks later, which made me feel cool. Music Fest happened and so here are some highlights, from best to least best: -Chocolate Milk -Swordfighting (especially watching Mr. Schroeder fighting Gary Shulte and Harjus Sethi -AP Lit vs. AP Lang game. I only saw an inning but it was fun -Remote Control Car that we ended up breaking -DJ’s couch -The Uprising -Hack Sacking -Reading the blueprint. If anyone has an extra credit, keep it for me since I didn’t leave with one -Skyline dip -Everything else I liked but did not include I packed the last of my locker stuff into my bag and walked to my car. I didn’t look back. Mr. John Ariosa, Zak Lee, and Dan Rankin were the last students I saw before leaving. So I concluded the day by being productive at work and going to the Waffler where I met and talked with friends. I feel depressed for having to leave the wonderful class I grew with for four years. I just don’t want any close friend bonds to be gone forever. I am also excited about this summer and college. I’m almost positive I want to hit up Fort Lauderdale with Brian, DJ, Mike, and the girls going. It will be cheap too. I might get a job at Family Video, and if not there, then at somewhere else like Blockbuster maybe. I’m convinced things can be good. I just need to think a little more about how I should categorize high school in my brain. Or maybe I’m thinking too much about it. Either way, I feel sort of empty inside and I want that to change. I will conclude by saying thanks to St. Xavier’s Class of 2005, and anyone that influenced me in any way at all during High School. I don’t think I will continue the good people list since this thanks goes out to anyone who I should have added or may have missed. Just Thanks. I’m a much more solid person since freshman year, and I managed to make up for lost opportunities in first years at St. X by doing more stuff this year. To anyone in the Class of 2005, don’t be afraid to contact me again. I hope that at least through the Internet we keep in touch. Official Graduation Day is next Wednesday. Until then I’ll relax. St. Xavier was and will of course remain a very influential part of my life. I am ready for a new life. (Comment on this)
Friday, May 20th, 2005
4:15 pm	It's over I managed to escape all my exams, so I will not have to return to school next week. Thus I have no more schoolwork or high school at all to worry about. It's over. Simple as that. Graduation is next Wednesday I believe. As I'm sure other seniors are feeling right now, I am lucky, sad, and hopeful. There are still so many people I never got to know. I'm trying to regret as little as I can, but sometimes all the accomplishments one has just doesn't cut it. I hope I get the job at Family Video this time. It's so close and the people that work there are so laid back. I really don't feel like writing about what's happened recently yet. I just feel depressed but excited somehow. (Comment on this)
Friday, May 13th, 2005
1:06 am	An online conversation I had with good friend Brian concerning Prom Weekend: Jester12525: mccauley dance then emily ichsomething's house Jester12525: for pizza and movie sorta deal..it asnt bad MP3POD: uh huh Jester12525: but not especially fun either Jester12525: home by 4 MP3POD: not bad Jester12525: best part of the weekend now was working on spanish project saturday MP3POD: wow Jester12525: then barely prepared for stx prom so i picked up soup who lives really close to northgate Jester12525: went to dasha's for dinner with webb shick and widmer Jester12525: that was good food and the oher girls were nice too Jester12525: prom happened and i liked the place it was at MP3POD: dont know that 1 Jester12525: but amanda doesn’t dance at all MP3POD: ah MP3POD: sucks Jester12525: it was cool though ...i don't remember if i was happy though..i think i kinda was MP3POD: lol MP3POD: so just a decent weekend then Jester12525: not over yet MP3POD: k Jester12525: phelps had to drive others like casey home so i had sarah and amanda to drive Jester12525: but it took like 10-15 minutes to find north 71, since there are only south 71/75 signs everywhere Jester12525: they didn’t like that i didn't know exactly how to get there i don’t think MP3POD: lol Jester12525: but we got to jimmy montgomery's where schick was and webb but the rest were only acquaintances of mine Jester12525: and amanda and sarah didn't know anyone Jester12525: so we basically just sat there for 20 minutes MP3POD: phil bachmeyer was there MP3POD: heh Jester12525: then i took them home and sarah was really tired Jester12525: yes he was Jester12525: it was just pool and v games Jester12525: i think sarah and amanda would rather have been (doing something different), but i dunno MP3POD: hah Jester12525: but i took them home and that was it basically MP3POD: i could see that Jester12525: then yesterday..... Jester12525: .... MP3POD: at about when Jester12525: its a story Jester12525: yesterday is where it's at MP3POD: wasnt jims a sleepover MP3POD: ok story time Jester12525: i dunno maybe Jester12525: fine but online is not teh best means MP3POD: well whatever you prefer Jester12525: you have psych tomm too? MP3POD: or would make it best if its undeniably awesome MP3POD: yeah Jester12525: ok Jester12525: ill tell you i guess Jester12525: so i wake up at around 1 i think sunday Jester12525: turns out danny messages me while im at northgate Jester12525: let me tell you about northgate MP3POD: fair enough Jester12525: dropped of tux then went to fye to say hey to sarah who i knew was working MP3POD: she works there Jester12525: we talk for 20 minutes then she gets her break and we go to food court for her break MP3POD: woah Jester12525: we talked about stuff that i don't remember Jester12525: but it was a good time, despite feeling kinda crappy from earlier two proms Jester12525: keep in mind that i am not taking showers this whole weekend Jester12525: except fridayt after school MP3POD: lol oh justin... Jester12525: i was too busy too! Jester12525: to Jester12525: anyway Jester12525: i get home and danny messages me online saying "we are fucked" MP3POD: who danny Jester12525: so i call john (who’s in the group too) to see what’s going on Jester12525: thiemann MP3POD: alright Jester12525: john says he’s going back over to danny’s to film more Jester12525: danny was supposed to edit saturday night but he held an afterporm party instead i much rather had gone too Jester12525: he had it on top of cincy convention center apparently since his dad works around there MP3POD: holy shit Jester12525: so he didn’t get any sleep saturday night Jester12525: so he’s running on empty MP3POD: that sounds really fucking sweet Jester12525: well the junior in the group comes for a bit too Jester12525: but after getting footage till 8, we drive to downtown to dan’s dad’s office to edit and shit with the software Jester12525: we go through rally's drive thru and we happen to have lots of props in the car.... Jester12525: danny is wearing a giant wig with big brown curly hair Jester12525: john is wearing an african monster thing on his head Jester12525: and I’m wearing an al gore mask with a crown over it MP3POD: hah Jester12525: danny orders a small number 6 "with extra SOUL." Jester12525: i got 2 burgers and they were decent MP3POD: haha man Jester12525: but it was hysterical going through the drive thru like that MP3POD: end? Jester12525: no Jester12525: no nonononono Jester12525: so we get downtown and we are seriously there for 10 hours MP3POD: hmm Jester12525: so its sunday night Jester12525: danny drove us in his van so i couldn’t just leave Jester12525: we don't leave until it gets burnt finally at about 6 am Jester12525: we go back to danny’s and we all crash until like 745 Jester12525: john decides to go straight to school MP3POD: woah sunday night Jester12525: danny i don't think can physically go to school MP3POD: wow Jester12525: and i slept and then drove home at around 8 or 9 I’m not sure Jester12525: mom called me in sick MP3POD: dang Jester12525: i get home and sleep from 8 or 9 to 2 something Jester12525: and I’ve kinda been studying psych since Jester12525: but i didn’t tell you about the video really Jester12525: or what we filmed and stuff MP3POD: wow that was chock full of surprises MP3POD: yeah i was gonna ask Jester12525: but i will show you when i get a copy Jester12525: good story? MP3POD: yeah definitely good story Jester12525: last night was so slap happy and depressing and crazy and anxious filled Jester12525: it was so funny MP3POD: but i have to know what the movie was MP3POD: and why MP3POD: lol Jester12525: because mr lamping said, "what is funny at 4 am before the project is due is not funny later" Jester12525: and we were up way past 4 am which is just pathetic All four of the members of our group aced the project. My brother has come home from Butler. All AP tests are finished. Summer is quickly approaching. I will soon be missing St. Xavier High School. WHere does the roller coaster take me next? Sweet kids! Danny Thiemann - If the above convo didn't convince you, let this sentence do it. Danny is the man. But do I really know Danny? Maybe so. Maybe so. I don't know who else to put right now. Peter was right. If summer ever starts getting old, reading books and the consequential discussions could really pick things up. Lastly, I'd like to say I had my shirt untucked the entire day today with no punishment. This was the first time in my whole HS, perhaps grade school, career. I am the example of rebel under the definition. Current Mood: chipper (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 10th, 2005
12:38 am	I did stuff. "It's winning us." "I'll take a small number six. With extra SOUL." -Mr. Danny Thiemann I might update with details later, after Psych. Won't be the same as your stories. Life. Current Mood: Conflicted Current Music: I Believe in Symmetry (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 3rd, 2005
7:57 pm	Actually Sick I just got off the phone with Marc Camille, the XU guy. He offered me $4,000/yr. in grant if I change my mind. That,s 16 G's! That would make XU cheaper than SLU by a few thousand a year. Here's the problem. Deciding whether to reconsider makes me sick. I want to throw up after taking a single second to think about it. Absolutely sick. Dshick05: the worst 16 K you have ever been given? Yes! Amidst the three days of hell I ge this call. Shiiiiiitake it back Camille! AP's + Proms + College??? = current stress situation I'm tired and sick and I wouldn't mind the month to fast forward to end of May. I'll live, but I might not like it the whole time. The overreacting boy who instead should be more greatful, Justin Lorenz Oh yeah. Digital Ash is really cooling down the situation. I'm in love with the CD. Current Music: Bright Eyes - Digital Ash in a Digital Urn (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 28th, 2005
11:08 pm	Sick, Stressed, Satisfied So today and yesterday I have been sick. It started with a scratchy throat and currently is similar to ja common cold. Allergies my mother claims, but maybe not. I'm not accustomed to headaches, but I guess the stress from incoming onslaught of AP tests has produced this.h.it's a shame really. I really think I'd do more work if not blowing my nose every seven seconds, give or take a second. Most worried about spanish, because I lost my vocabulary somewhere in the last few months. No one, including myself, wants to hear about that though. Life is still good overall. Grades dipping even more, but they matter less and less. I actually did some theology homework today. The future proms are also sources of stress I'm sure. I hope they are good and fun. Next Friday will be with Liz at McCauley's prom, then St. X's with Amanda. I wish my infinite attractiveness would translate to people doing things for me sometimes. Rarely though. Yeah, life could be worse. Today I went into school early to talk to a class of juniors. I was a part of a three person panel that addressed issues of homosexuality at our school. The juniors were pretty mature about it, but probably because it is a touchy subject. I felt some simple worth after doing that to be honest. Most of the weekend will be spent on test preparations i.e. cramming things I learned last year and forgotten things from the current. Shiiiiiiit's not gonna be too fun, but for some reason I don't dislike studying this shiiiitoo much. Lastly, Family Guy starts up on Sunday night. Something else to look forward to. Oh yeah, and I decided to go to SLU. I decided this because I like the size, it has a Madrid campus I will live at, it has a nice green campus, it's in a new city to explore, and it will force me to be independent moreso than XU would have. Oh, and it gave me more more overall than any other school. It's a winner. Cool People! Zak Robbe - Zak wouldn't expect me to put his name here, but I enjoy his presence in Theology class. I bitch at him for doing stuff, but it really is mostly me joking around. Zak seems open to learning stuff about the world. I wouldn't mind philosophizing with this kid. I should probably say this stuff to his face, too. Ryan McGraw - Have only really known the kid since Kairos 105. Now he lead Kairos 110 as rector. Just a great kid in every sense. Really nice too. Sorry there are not more. Remember this is supposed to be for people I've gotten to know mainly in senior year, and not during any other time. I bet I forgot something else. Let's hang out sometime, Justin Lorenz Current Music: Desaparecidos (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 20th, 2005
11:35 pm	I used to. I can honestly say I love life right now. I still haven't decided what college to go to, though i'm leaning toward slu, but gosh dang I'm just happy and feeling fulfilled. Oh I want to live. I really just want to live. Maybe that's why I don't go to sleep until so late. I need to learn to change though, and it will be hard, but it will come in good time. AP tests I am not as worried about either, in spite of having lesser chances of getting decent grades on them. Thanks to all, because none of you have decreased this joy inside of me. I don't know what else to say. Yes, I'm happy even while listening to Bright Eyes. Struth. Current Mood: just awesome (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 13th, 2005
7:21 pm	Existential Angst SLU or XU or SLU or XU or SLU or XU or SLU or XU or SLU or XU or SLU... St. Louis was nice. My indecisiveness is not. Aw Hell! (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 10th, 2005
1:00 am	College Visit Time Just a short entry before I set sail for St. Louis in the morning. After work today which was crazy busy, I was lazy until I went to Mom Prom. I ate dinner with Schwartz, DJ, Brian, and Mike M. and their respective moms at Kabuto. A sweet Japanese style restaurant where the cook prepares the food in front of your surprised faces. I really enjoyed the food and the cook was funny weird with his words. I can see myself going back to that place. Mom prom was better than anticipated. It was fun seeing school friends outside of school like Sweeny and the Colinator. I realized I don't dislike dancing as much as I claim too, and I really wouldn't mind going to prom(s) now. I forget the name of the techno song, but that one at around 11 made me so happy. It was so sweet how all the students just charged the center and jumped around. That sweet little rush made me wish I had ..uh...gotten crazy around guys more? I dunno, but it was just funny how that happened. I left before the last hour since my mother wanted to prepare for the trip tonight. I hope the rest of you students had a great time. So hear I am thinking that SLU is going to be fun and hoping that it doesn't rain while I'm there. I just hope the visit doesn't put me right on the line between XU and SLU. Choice is such a questionable subject. Thanks everyone for a good time. Anyone I know or have known in life I'm glad I know or had known. I really do mean that. Sorry no time for special people today. woohop. Goodnight and have a pleasant tomorrow. Current Mood: anticipative (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, April 9th, 2005
3:00 am	Tonight calls for such an entry Life is very satisfactory right now, despite some unoriginal hardships. I felt the urge to update because of the good mood i'm in. One reason is of course the concert at Bogart's I just attended. Circa Survive opened, but I think I may have missed my favorite song by them since I ate with Brian at Goldstar a little late. I really like the singer's voice for some reason, but he seemed kinda wasted up on stage. He sorta fell down a few times, but still managed to sing every line. Or maybe he was acting the part. Lucero was a rock band bordering on country that was decent, but nothing special for me. Motion CIty Soundtrack then played quite a a few songs. I just do not enjoy listening to them that much. I don't dislike them, but it's just my taste I guess. Then Taking Back Sunday owned the audience. Surprisingly, the lead singer had cut his hair so he lacked the really long hair he had. I had high expectations for the concert so I was slightly disappointed at the end that it wasn't even better. It was good and I liked actually knowing the words to songs. Bash me for liking emo bands if you like, but it's nothing I can change. TBS is consistently good in their songs according to my taste. Brian and I then went to Sitwells and I met someone I knew like every time I go to that coffee shop. A kid named Ben that I hadn't seen since last summer. Cool kid. I then went to Brian's house and ate fudge brownie ice cream that was in a cup along with chocolate milk. It was a gorgeous snack. Also why I am happy is because I was introduced to frisbee golf today, the kind of sport I could see myself playing more often. I got 25 over par after nine holes, but I could tell I had improved by the end. Throwing the frisbees between small spaces between trees is really fun. Sid and I are trying to find time for a movie marathon, which of course will feature selected foreign films. IF you are interested, do ask about coming. Next one will probably hit my house sometime after AP exams since I will soon reach a point where I will feel too guilty to do anything besides study. This of course will give people like Drew Shickie reason to make fun of my continuing attempt to try sometimes at school, but sacrifices must be made! Foreign films are so great for learning about other parts of the world though. It always makes me want to travel even more than usual. No summer plans yet. I also heard about a girl I knew from a college thing that was interested in me without me knowing and I could have gone to Chicago with her, save that I hadn't gone already with Andrew. I'll be missing school Monday because I'm visiting SLU this coming Sunday and Monday. If I am not incredibly impressed then I will probably end up at XU. I need to find a way to see choice as more of a gift rather than a problem in cases like college decisions. Mom Prom is tomorrow and it is going to rock. I cannot wait to dance with a certain someone's mom...a few people will know and want to do the same tomorrow night. Laugh. I missed school on Monday, and I really think it was because my alarm clock's snooze didn't work, not because I overslept. Yes I did sleep until 1:30 p.m. on Monday of this week. Whether to consider it skipping is debatable. I mean I enjoy school, so I have no reason to skip. I don't enjoy school as much the atmosphere and being around people I have come to know. Another thing that makes me happy is how some of my friendships have improved recently. If I do leave town for college, I can hope to hang out with good friends when I come back home whenever. I am not sleeping right now because I want this happiness to last. I hope waking up is really good when I remember why I should be in a good mood. Imagine having that feeling everyday? It usually comes from looking forward to something happening soon. I should be more active in finding a way to "eternalize" that shiiiiiiiiithe Pope died recently. John Paul II is a man I only know a little about, but respect from what I know. As a Catholic that has gone through Catholic Schools his whole life it seems should know more about the man, but aye, I do not. I am hopeful for change from a new Pope though. I recently wrote a theology paper where I realized a new Vatican could make things better for example by establishing women should have a bigger role it the Church. My ears are ringing and I am sleepy. I guess I should sleep so as to hopefully remember a dream. I haven't remembered one for atleast four months. sup with that. Good people! Eric Dorger - Ever since Peru I have gotten to know this guy a little more every once in a while. Were into movies and thinking which is magnificent. Friend. Even without trying, he motivated me to not drink soda pop anymore. Glorious. Kyle Correa-Brady - I do community service with this kid every week and I enjoy how he openly talks about stuff. Cool guy! Matt Weinkam - I didn't really get to know Matt at all until my first Kairos. He's real into social justice issues which I too am into. I like the honesty and self-thought. Go for it man. Harrison Sand - I eat with Harry pretty often and he is fun to just sit around I guess. It's nice to joke and talk about Euro Lit books we had read. I have gotten to know him more this year than in any other. Keep the long hair when you get it back. You'll thank me later no questions asked. As for the rest of you, keep the gorgeous going. REAL happiness is underrated. Oh it hurts to always have to be honest with the one that you love. -Brand New's Jesse Lastiname P.S. Sorry I didn't warn that this entry isn't really exciting. Sike! Or? Good Night. What a fitting phrase on which to leave you. Current Mood: jubilant Current Music: Circa Survive and TBS (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, March 27th, 2005
2:06 am	Here it is. The update you've all been waiting for. Warning: not that funny Now I always wish that I would remember all the things I do so I can write it in here and therefore be able to look back later and remember what I did and thought. My memory isn't perfect though... I have to try to include all thoughts since the 9th? Shiiiiiiiiithat's not gonna happen. But I actually did get my agenda book out to remind myself. Jhair left on March 11th and I haven't talked to him since. I emailed him once to no response and he has not be on MSN Messenger. I seriously doubt he'd try to ignore me, but it's kinda sad. I think he has been really busy since he missed lots of school and time with people. I'm sure we'll be talking soon. I guess I will start next with swordfighting club. This is about the best club that could ever be created, and all thanks to John Fogg and Clint Gibler I should add, two of the best overall students at St. Xavier. I don't own any of my own swords yet, but I hope to get myself to make one myself, and therefore no longer be a scrub. Sword fighting is a great way of relieving the aggressiveness we all have. Getting hit in the hands suck but dang it's fun to hit people. I had John over after exams one day and it was fun. I need to get better because I think I'm pretty sucky still. Yeah I want to get good. I went to an info session with Loyola Chicago and got some free stuff like a keychain thing which I'm using now. That college along with XU are my top two I think. Went to this Jesuit luncheon thing for some Papa Johns Pizza. I realized that I'f I were to ever become a Jesuit, I would be perfect for the job. I think this because I could easily leave everything and everyone I know behind to pursue some cause. I don't know why, but I think I can pair it with how I'd give my life for anyone, no matter who. But I cannot be a Jesuit if I'm having trouble with my views on the existence of God and certain organized parts of religion. That psych paper that I put off until the last weekend before it was due turned out to be a bad time. I stayed up until 4:30 a.m. writing it. I took a nap from then until 6 and then finished it at lunch the same day. So pathetic, and to think I let it ruin my life for weeks. Atleast it's gone. Maybe I learned not to do that staying up way too late again, but I'm skeptical. The two weekends before this one I basically did nothing besides work. I just stayed home and either joked around at home or caught up on schoolwork or watched a movie or two. Exams happened and though I planned on studying a lot, I studies less than I ever have for exams. I only actually studied for about two hours total for six subjects. Thursday night I went to Sitwells with Sid and Renee, a nice girl I met who has the same taste in music as I do. Corey came along with his friends which was interesting. Hopefully we can pull together plans for another movie marathon with more foreign films. Sid likes the foreign flicks. Friday night consisted of Fargo at Eric D's with Eric and Mikey K. We talked until 4 a.m. about St. X, college, experiences, and other aspects of life. Tonight was fun. I spent two hours at Dj's before deciding to go somewhere. Brian, DJ, Kristin, Monica, Samma and I hit up Colerain park for some adventuring and then talking about organized religion, divorce, and to what high degree of punk rock I am. This is my synthesis of current thoughts: College is on almost everyone's mind. Personally, I want to be open to new experiences, but I feel like I really don't want to enrich my life with such possible experiences like drinking. I have reasons to do anything I would choose to do so maybe I shouldn't be so worried about regrets as long as I don't do anything that stupid. Through all the conversations I've had, I've learned it's still best to be open to everything. I constantly hear people generalize and have opinions about issues and I just cannot see myself as doing that for many subjects. I hope that I can stay open so as to not have buas toward certain thinking. It also seems like there are less things to do than there used to be. It's hard to think of fun new plans. I don't want to blame Cincy because I think the reason for it is college. People are going off to college in the Fall and so it seems people have given up until that time. And though this shouldn't happen if we really wanted to live it up carpe diem style, it persists anyway. I look forward to college too much, and I will surely regret not doing enough before college. I know this, think skeptically that I won't change knowing it, and then hate myself for not changing while knowing it. I hope this is a sign that I know myself. I don't hope it means I cannot change as easily as I'd like. Easter is tomorrow which will be nothing special to be honest. From Monday to Wednesday however, I will be going to Chicago with Greiwe and his dad to check out Loyola Chicago's Lake Shore campus. I hope I get enough out of the trip because my college decision rests a whole lot on how I view the college. I'm pretty excited about Chicago since I only hear good things and it sounds like the kind of place I'd like. This is by far not the funniest or action packed of my journals, but hey, I think that's because I'm writing this less for comments and more for looking back later and remembering what stage of my life I was at, at this point in time. Cool people! Jeni Peters: My brothers good friend, and my friend too. She took me out to see Million Dollar Baby which was great and I know I already mentioned this in a past entry. Jeni has been nice in letting me know about what college will be like. Thanks Jeni, and yes I did write this only because you told me to. Mike Moyer: This kid I've only really known this year. I can tell he wants more from life than I give him credit for. Mike is not an asshole. A+. Andrew Greiwe: Nice kid who wants some Truth. This kid has offered me a ride to Chicager which was quite a selfless act. Andrew is a happy kid that I enjoy going to classes with and eating pizza with that his mom bought. : ) I guess I shall conclude my entry with a quote I found. And no, I don't necessarily agree with all of it. "This I believe: That the free, exploring mind of the individual human is the most valuable thing in the world. And this I would fight for: the freedom of the mind to take any direction it wishes, undirected. And this I must fight against: any idea, religion, or government which limits or destroys the individual." John Steinbeck P E A C E ! Current Mood: jOViAL Current Music: BE - I'm Wide Awake, It's Morning (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 9th, 2005
5:49 pm	Just a Quote Those who believe that they believe in God, but without passion in their hearts, without anguish in mind, without uncertainty, without doubt, without an element of despair even in their consolation, believe in the God idea, not God himself. -Miguel de Unamuno (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 3rd, 2005
11:24 pm	Hello readers. I finished Hamlet a few days before it was due for school, thus proving I do have some will power and interest in something nowadays. It is my favorite Shakespeare play and one of my favorite reads ever too. I highly recommend it to anyone who loves bad-ass characters. The last weekend was decent. I went to Brian's on Friday after work for some just general fun with some generally good people. A group I wouldn't mind hanging out with again. Saturday night included seeing Million Dollar baby with Jeni, Eric M, and Jhair. It was a great movie that I was pleased to see didn't have an expected Hollywood-type ending. At least I didn't see it as such an ending. Clint Eastwood is the coolest old guy in the world, along with Morgan Freeman and my grandpa's. Then on Sunday, as i'm sure you want to know, I saw Constantine with Brian and Jhair. It was pretty good, but I think I would have liked it if I understood more of it. Sometimes I just forget things about movies while I watch them. I think my memory is worsening because of lack of needed sleep plus being on the computer too much, but I'm not making any bets. I was able to do a few things over the weekend since I had no homework after 4 pm on Friday. Heck son, I have only had a little homework this whole week also. It's pretty nice, but I'm just avoiding the 2 projects due in a few weeks. They are the root of any unhappiness I have right now, yet I don't even look at the "research" i've gathered. I could even work since I've had so little homework recently. So yeah that was my weekend. Tuesday marked the MLK Jr. Assembly which I must address. It was all well and good, but the issue of sexual minorities was brought up a few times. Obviously it is an issue to many people, and almost anyone that has an opinion feels vehement about it. As a member of that subgroup of Hands Across Campus, I feel I should be doing something. Coffee proposed a meeting during lunch for those interested, and that's probably the best idea yet since we cannot have another Y day devoted to the issue. I really do see it as a serious issue, and it really is one if you took the position of someone that was a closet homosexual for only a day. Clue me in if you decide to brainstorm some sort of way we can spread awareness on sexual minority issues. Brian and Mike just came over for a great game of scrabble and other stuff. Mike won scrabble, but I cam kinds close to second out of 4. I actually tried to do homework that is due later so that I feel better about not working on projects. No luck though. Jhair leaves in only like 7 days, next friday morning to be exact. I will miss the Peruvian fellow for sure, and his music. By the way, I'm excited about going to the TBS concert in like 6 weeks. I don't know where on earth i'm going to college. I just don't care all that much either. I just want to educate myself amidst my peers in an independent setting. No specific plans for spring break or summer trip. Sid and I are discussing some options, but nothing official. I wouldn't mind hitting up NYC so I can erase my early judgments about the place. I definitely want to leave Cincinnati so I can gain some of that good ol' wisdom I crave. I read MLK Jr's letter from a Birmingham Jail and it is very persuasive and passion producing. I cannot wait until I find more meaning in my life. I want to live and I need to be instigated somehow or by someone. Until next time this has been, Me, justin Hey, try to guess the band/singer abbreviations if you want. Current Mood: not bad Current Music: HIPV, HG, BE, DT, J, CS, TU (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 20th, 2005
11:11 pm	Hey there. I guess i'll update real quick while I'm finally burning the "best of my cd's" records. Week was pretty standard I think. I looked forward to the movie marathon which happened last night. I got a cold Saturday and ended up blowing my nose all day at work. Decided to go to Sid's for movies anyway. John came to and we watched The Holy Land, Lost in Translation, Goodbye Lenin!, and A Home at the End of the World. All of them were decent, i don't think i have a favorite. A Home kept me glued to the screen the most though since it was different. Last night what really fun even with the cold and sort of crappy feeling. I wouldn't mind doing the same thing again. Tonight could have been great but I decided I was too sick to do much at all. I skipped my family's birthday party thing that would partly celebrate my birthday. I missed seeing Constantine with Brian, DJ, Mike, and Max. I missed having a movie party with Amanda, Sarah, and BA. I missed going to Clifton with Sid, Chris, and Chris. I missed hanging out with Biggin and Noah. BUt I think I'd rather have been sick today than on a Sunday with school after it. I could be angrier. Time to listen to my new mixes and read Hamlet until I fall asleep into tomorrow. Called off work for tomorrow so I should have time for having some worth. More people that are sweet that I've gotten to know this year: Mike Sweener - This kid knows how to think and is also among the top 5 funniest in our senior class at st.x. Cool. DJ Miller (DW) - DJ is cool and has managed to balance girlfriend time and friend time pretty well. DJ is essentially a good guy. I like having DJ as a friend in and out of school. Jhair will be back tuesday night from Florida I think. Have a nice President's Day. Current Mood: alive (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, February 12th, 2005
11:39 pm	Eternally Sunshined Three passions have governed my life: The longings for love, the search for knowledge, And unbearable pity for the suffering of [humankind]. Love brings ecstasy and relieves loneliness. In the union of love I have seen In a mystic miniature the prefiguring vision Of the heavens that saints and poets have imagined. With equal passion I have sought knowledge. I have wished to understand the hearts of [people]. I have wished to know why the stars shine. Love and knowledge led upwards to the heavens, But always pity brought me back to earth; Cries of pain reverberated in my heart Of children in famine, of victims tortured And of old people left helpless. I long to alleviate the evil, but I cannot, And I too suffer. This has been my life; I found it worth living. -Bertrand Russell Watched Eternal Sunshine finally. It was great. I want to watch it again already. Thanks for the movie suggestions guys. (2 Comments |Comment on this)